Brenda Ruth's Memoirs'

Remember when you were a child and you had so many dreams?  The world was limitless and anything was possible!

We have every intention to achieve these dreams but “life happens” and our world shifts.

Looking through the different stages of my life I can say yes, I have achieved the dreams that I had undeniable faith in.

It certainly didn’t mean I didn’t soul search as I most certainly did.

What I mean is I knew in my whole being it was true.

My two biggest dreams of my life from a young age was to be a mother and to one day live on a acreage outside the city close to a lake! Yes, I was wanting both worlds, haha! For me this was dreaming big!

It wasn’t easy though.  The first dream to be a mother took a long time. My friends and family members were getting married and I was still single into my late thirties.  Many boyfriends told me, either they didn’t want children or that the right person will come along. It was disheartening to say the least.  A lot of soul searching, tears and heartache went with it. The self doubt, am I good enough and searching to be accepted.

To give you a bit of back ground in my early twenties my first boyfriend ( whom I truly loved) cheated on me and within the same year my father passed away.  To say the least it was a very difficult year.  It also made me question what love is and the undenialable mistake of associating sex with love.

As I mentioned alot of soul searching.  Many different ways to cope that worked for a while but never quite fulfilled me.

That is when vision boards came into my life, as well as meditation, prayer and reading. DOING self care is very important.

It wasn’t until my mid thirties when I was walking across an open field to go to a chiropractor appointment when I saw a little girl with her mother having a picnic. As I walked by this little girl I saw in her eyes that one day I would have a little girl. I knew with every inch of my being. My little girl would have big brown eyes just like mine.  I could not explain. I didn’t know when or how but I knew it to be true. I call it faith!

Whenever the topic of children came up I thought of this little girl.

It wasn’t until my very late thirties that I meet my future husband! I was at the age where I was done playing games and wanted to get serious. He was to.

So we welcomed our baby girl when I was 42 years old. Yes, she had big beautiful brown eyes and hair!  I feel so blessed and I am so grateful everyday of my life to be her mom.

The second dream of living on a acreage has now manifested. Just this past year did we buy a acreage.  It isn’t close to the lake and that’s okay! It is a home where we can expand and dream more of a life we truly want to create.

I am so grateful! For all the challenges have taught me to never lose sight of your dreams. We can question the how or why but letting go to what the universe brings can be better then what you could ever imagine!

So my friends, always stay true to your heart and your dreams…